its been a long while..
feels like a dream though.
thought of changing blog, but decided not to.
its been sweet, sour, bitter, bland, everything u can think of.

i wonder if im happy now, i wonder if your happy too.
when u said u still wanted to be frens, u still wanted to listen to my problems,
i believed u. but u proved me wrong again.
i guess it shows, ur really happy with her now. :)

wifey dotes on me a lot,
i really feel so loved.
but i feel disappointed with myself,
i wanna listen and be good,
but i cant.
thanks for givin in to me all the time,
sending me back though ur damn tired,
making me smile when im down,
supporting me in what i do.
yesterday i laughed a lot,
but deep down in my hrt,
i was crying.
feeling so emo, trying so hard to laugh the tears away.
i wish i could hug u now.

going to chamber feels so crappy at times.
maybe i did offend some ppl unintentionally.
but i didnt know it.
i cant help but feel irritated at times.
u go there to drink and relax, not to make trouble,
not to watch out for ppls flaws.
last time everyone used to be so friendly.
and all of a sudden, u hear tt ppl are sayin bad things about u.
and the worst thing is, everyone says ITS COMMON for peeps there to backstab each other.
seriously, wads wrong?!?!?!?!
so we are paying to go there and get attitude from ppl for nth?
really ridiculous.
argh. forget it.