is it a good thing to carry on like that?

should i make an end now that we've come to this point?

having problems cropping up every other week doesn't seem to be making either of us happy..

why am i still holding on? why do i keep procrastinating in my words and actions?

there's just sth about u tt makes me wanna hold on so so so tightly and not let go.

despite our fights, and our tears dropped.. the happy times with u still shine out among all the memories..

even when we know its just a dead end ahead, we are still choosing this path..

why????

are we too stubborn? too defiant? too lonely? or too much in love?

but then again, what's love?

it just keeps me pondering..

would u just hop into a r/s not knowing where it would lead u to, not knowing if the person is really the one, not knowing what the other party is really thinking.. would u just give it a try?

or would u be afraid to step outta ur comfort zone, afraid tt if u try, u might plunge into another deep hole?

sigh. i don't even know what i'm talking about.

i miss my ah tan though, thats all i know. :(