hmm thanks for ur concern guys x)

actually, during this period i've had lots of time to reflect and do what i want.

i had my freedom to go out with and contact anyone..

its really good to take a break, and just spend time on myself instead of others.

working at chamber hutz really brightened me up a lot,

i made new frens and gradually stopped dwelling on the past.

the ppl there do dote on me, stopping me from drinking too much, cheering me up with their silly faces, making me laugh a lot.

but things got a little outta hand, i abused my freedom and went home in the morning each day..

i drank til i got sick, my cough is back and really bad this time round, and the worse thing is, i'm neglecting my family and frens..

i feel tt working at chamberz has really opened up my mind.. it was tiring, but it was worth it. cos i learnt a lot. not all ppl are bad, but not all of them are good either. it just takes time to see through their fronts. and the bad dun appear that bad, whilst the good do have some shortcomings. guess its human nature.

all in all, i really hope that u can understand, i do enjoying hanging out at chamberz.. and i wont fall into bad influence, cos i'm bev! :) i can stop working, but i still wanna go back once in a lil while..

and to the "anonymous" person, i duno if u were referring to her and susan? or perhaps someone else? just wanna let ur noe, she has her right to be with anyone she likes. i duno is it tt particular someone spreading words around again, or wad. but, anyone who is single is available. if some ppl think that jw is a flirt, then go ahead, but pls dun spread gossips behind her back, and yet act all friendly with her when face to face. its THIS kinda people who are the most irksome. i was the one who told jw i wanted a r/s with no strings attached. cos i wanted my freedom to be with anyone i like. and the same applies to her.. i chose this path myself.

everyone thinks that JW is the one in the wrong. actually, both of us were in the wrong. after all this time i've had to think and reflect on my own, i've actually learnt from JW something important.. i'm beginning to put aside my pride and admit my mistakes.. and i'm sorry for what i did, and what i should have done but didn't do..

on a lighter note, HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEEPS! XD hope everyone has a great time partying tonight!!!