we are quarreling on the phone now as i blog. zzz. u say im boring, im not romantic. whatever. i noe ur angry cos of lotsa things i do or don't do. i noe it sucks to sms with me. cos i always say ok. but i was really in a bad mood.. im sorry. im worried about work, im pissed about someone, im scared i cant be on time at the coffeeshop, im scared about tomoros interview, im worried tt if u get another job now u cant cope with ur studies.. theres just lotsa things racing through my mind now.. u suddenly sent me the sweet sms, but it really came at the wrong time.. my dad was reprimanding me, and i was smsing the long long sms to someone and the worse thing is.. i was crying.. i just wasnt in the mood to type some mushy mushy msg.. maybe im too self-centred.. but i noe sometimes i really try to do sth special to make u smile. i dont expect much, the only thing i ask for is, please dont ever yell at me in public again. i hate the feeling of being in a ch8 drama show.

my dad just said im unreliable, cos i didnt go to work. zzz. and i feel so stupid. i shld have just stayed awake and gone to work instead of slping. i shld have been more firm... 730 means 730.. urgh...

and im super pissed with someone for trying to make use of me, or shld i say, my family? i typed a longgg sms to her, but cancelled it in the end. i dun even noe if i still wanna be frens. i guess i just cant be bothered now. she wont even realise that im pissed either, cos shes busy making big bucks.

in a sucky mood right now.