its 3.41am now, im tired but i cant sleep. am i that bad? sigh. i wish i could just throw everything aside. wish i could be the old bev and cheer myself up. but as time goes by, it seriously gets harder. and everytime i fall, it gets harder for me to get back on my feet cos im losing hope in everything. i noe im fortunate as compared to others, but i guess im so spoilt that i cant take any setbacks. zzz

and ah dear.. i was looking through all the songss on ur ipod, searching for a song that would suit u during the journey home.. i couldnt really find the perfect song to replace my "ZHU ZHI GE".. so.. its not that u dont have a place in my hrt or mind. its just tt i couldnt find the right song. by the time i reached home, i only covered about 1/4 of ur songs. and after that, the bad things happened, so... blah blah blah. aiya u might think im giving u excuses, but im just saying this cos i dont want u to think im still keeping silent when i noe ur angry. actually, i noe wad im thinking but im super tired now, so i dont really know if im typing wad im thinking.. maybe u wont understand it. its ok lah haha. the main point im trying to put across is, I'M TRYING TO SAY SOMETHING INSTEAD OF KEEP QUIET!!!! OKAY?!~