sometimes, its the thought that counts, thats all that matters to me.
i dun get irritated when i dun get a reply anymore,
i dun wait for a call tt wont come anymore,
just taking things as it comes.
wanna hold on, but he seems to take it as a joke.
tried to be sweet, but he thought i was drunk.
hes a big time idiot.
big idiot. ARGH

im tired, very tired. havent been slping much for the past 3 weeks.
i understand what it feels like now, to have that feeling that your going soon.
when i cough til i cant breathe and i start to black out, when i force my eyes to focus, when i dreamt that i jumped off the building, when i puked til there was nth left and my stomach really hurt. i feel like pieces and pieces of me are just fading away.
its not tt i dun wanna see a doc, theres just no time..