velvet dragon was alright, met a gay guy. lols. only spent $4 that night, $2 for cup noodles, $2 for ribena. hahahaha happppppppppppppppy!

feel like gettin a bike license, but after some thought, i think i would prefer sittin at the back.

:)

kbox tomoro, mambo nxt wed, qm exam nxt fri. haha. life sure is "exciting"!

oh yeah, read an article from some magazine. its on changes. sometimes when u've changed, be it in terms of character, or appearance, there are bound to be people around u who are unhappy. some might be due to disappointment, cos they feel that u've turned bad. on the other hand, some pple are afraid, afraid that u'll change too much and they won't be able to catch up with u. they're afraid they will become inferior to u, tts why they might try to dissuade u from turning into who u wanna become. that's how i used to feel. i was afraid i couldnt catch up with chris, kapo, faus, and the rest. and i tried to change as well. but now i realise that, they haven't changed, not one bit at all. i'm the one who has changed. maybe there are some things that can't be controlled...

i understand how it feels like, to have someone gossiping about u behind ur back, and when tt someone is someone u thought u could trust.

after knowing that u wont gain anymore benefits from someone, u decide, "fcuk it all" and act pathetic, telling everyone trash about her. whats the point? ur a fcuking bastard, and i really wanna tear u apart, 1 cm by 1cm. feed u to the rats. ur a crazy fcuker, u really are.

and, i feel like crying.
feel like scolding myself, for being so useless.
its hard to insist on what i want, its really hard.
how long can this go on?

bad moodswings. argh.