i'm super happy. :) was thinking why am i so darn broke, realised that its because i lent a gd fren some cash. hahaha SCARED ME! only have $50 left in my bank. having mixed feelings about some issues now, thinking things through slowly. lost my bro's harry potter book somewhere in the house. been searching for it since last week, its super irritating!!! moving soon, choosing the wall colours and all. having a great time rotting at home, i really miss my home sooo much :) shall make up my mind soon. feeling so silly now, especially about last night. how could i just blindly listen and let her cut me?! haha. but i guess i needed the pain, to wake myself up from this neverending nightmare. i wish all these were just a dream.

prawning was great, riding a bike at 3am in the morning was great. the cold wind and the morning dew was great, the yummy fresh prawns were great. life at home is good, eating hagen daaz with pistachio nuts right now is great as well. everything is going smooth and good, but my mind is in a huge mess. even my blog entry seems messed up. im just typing whatever comes to mind.

we contacted again, and its good, only friends. knowing my limits, making sure we keep our distance. its tiring, but i feel happy. happy on the outside, sad on the inside. some words that were supposed to be taken lightly, actually had an impact on me. and it got me thinking about the past. no doubt, its all over now. and im glad, that now i know, i can actually live without you.
i could actually resist the temptation to pick up ur calls, to reply ur smses. im growing outta u, and i'm loving it.

:) 3 cheers to bev!