i thought i could help her to stand on her own feet, but i was wrong.
i thought the pain she went through would teach her a lesson, and again i was wrong.
i chose to help carry her burden, yet now i feel like giving up on her.
in a dilemma now, i can't afford to fail in my studies.
neither can i bear to leave her alone to fend for herself.
im missing home more and more each day.

she's wasting my time and money on some selfish person who uses his crocodile tears to gain sympathy from others.
she needs the love, i need my sleep. everything just clashes.
i need some rest, some peace and quiet, a night at home with mum watching vcds.
the more i think about it, the angrier i get.
the tears keep flowing, i know i ain't happy at all, but what should i do?

what are frens for...?
losing hope..