realised im really growin up, (apart from growin horizontally) =x
the pple im gettin to noe drive cars now
in the past, it was tricycles, then bicycles
gettin pressurized to get my license.
not by frens, but by my parents.
they're tired of havin to wake up to send me whenever im late
which is almost everyday haha
kinda reluctant.
cos it means being independent.
so so so so sick
i really noe nuts abt driving
feel sick even when i think of havin to read the bk
all the rules.. BLARGHHHHHHH
everyday my mum keeps askin if i book my BTT alr..
the FAIL word keeps flashin everytime i think of it
i still prefer to take buses.
though the phobia is there..
but i like buses :)
can take me anywhere,
when im directionless, and duno where to go
at least, buses have their own destinations
they will nv get lost halfway
perhaps, tts how i wanna live my life.
just followin wadever is planned for me.
just now someone said a random remark
tt my life is like those doggies at kranji; meaningless.
haha it was just a joke la.
but it sort of set me thinking.. a lot.
yeah, i guess i can nv stop thinkin haha
prolly cos my "thinking" mood is on now.
just wanna find quiet places to sit,
and think about my life,
wad i wanna do.
my mum called just now,
to complain again.. keep going home late..
heard from kang tt my dad cut hair alr.
LOL. mum tested me.
asked me wads dada's hair parting.
the fact is, i really dont know.
kang told me centre partin.
wth? my fren noes my dads hair parting but i dont.
wad kinda daughter am i?
wad a joke man..
and i feel very terrible inside.
today i told myself i'll go str8 home after work.
i went back on my words again.
i got home at 4am.
yesterday too, 4.30am.
hah. earlier by 30mins. not bad eh.
i wanna spend more time at home,
but i just cant stand being alone..
its unbearable.
gonna explode.

its really hard to be good to everyone.