how do i convince them that your not as bad as they think?
feel so sick..
duno wad i can say and wad i cant say..
for the good of everyone..
not only am i caught in between..
my parents are too..
i wish i could just say it all out..
but im scared of the consequences..
dun wan all their effort in building up this shop go down the drain
i wan the workers to respect them
be it in front, or behind them.
this time, its coming from xueling,
the one person i least expected to say this kinda thing.
are they really all just putting on a front?
or do they sincerely care??
i feel so dumb.. i cant tell..
i dun mind washing cups for hours to lighten their workload..
i can stop using my hp during workin hours
..i just want them to stop assuming and judging things
my parents are tryin to be fair..
but i noe.. its hard for them..
cos im their daughter.. and i was the one who brought u in..
crap...

preparations for stock taking today..
emptied the storeroom, counted all the stocks there..
omg.. stayed at cheers til 10.30.. lols
had so many things to do..
cashier for syam, and gummy supplier came at the wrong time
hee new gummies coming in! :)
yaode and i each bought 1 lil carton of Magnum ice cream home
MUAHAHHAHA
sorry CK.. =x
stock taking tomoro..
feeling excited :)
wonder how many days would we take?
ms cai told me to go home at 1pm to rest, den go back at 4pm -_-
i'll be staying there from 7.30am til night
muahahahhaha
so many things to do!!!
still havent had time to watch my vcds...
cant say tt im busy,
cos someone once said tt if im really that busy
i would be a millionaire by now..
haha.. yea.. true i guess.
i just have a lot of things to do..
and its much better den idling my time away!
hav to meet qiang tomoro,
but i dun think i'll hav the energy loh
lols i'll most prolly put his aeroplane =x
i'll try my best la huh!!!
need more leadership skills..
ms cai said im still blur blur in cheers..
the rest hav good marks for leadership skills..
except for me..
kinda put me down a lil..
but.......... heehee really glad..
she's givin me lotsa opportunities to try..
i like it when i've got responsibilities to bear..
cos i feel that.. finally i can contribute..
dun wanna be the old useless bev..
took home the keys to Cheers tonight..
which means...... i've gotta be there ON TIME tomoro..
quite a difficult task huh..
bev, jiayou ok!! muahahha
die die must wake up at 5.30AM
x_x

someone told me my fortune
at the expense of getting his life shortened
to tell me im being used by someone i hold close to my hrt.
shld i believe him?
wad if its true, or worse, false?

....if his spirit is with me..
pls ask him to protect him..
not me..
i can take care of myself..
duno if i believe it..
and im scared.. tt i will see him
i alr freaked out last night..
.....if he is really beside me..
or she is beside me..
pls dun let me see u..
i will definitely freak out..
if u wanna stay beside me..
pls.. dun show urself to me..
and .. i want my privacy.
i have my reasons for doing certain things..

im scared of ghosts.

i noe i sound crazy saying this..
and maybe it was qiang who told them..
or perhaps leslie was tellin me the truth..
he really is by my side.