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1:52 AM

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

wasted 3 hours
i shouldn't have gone to meet u
felt so disappointed
utterly disappointed
dun wanna think of it this way
but, did u contact me again,
cos u wanted me to join the company?
if u sincerely wanted to share it with me cos its good,
if u really did care,
u wouldnt have waited til now
its just too coincidental,
suddenly calling me,
and the nxt moment tellin me about it
....
i had other plans,
i had to rush home after tt for my proj
but i still wanted to meet u to talk,
since we're "frens"
but now.. isit worth it?
definitely not.
true, you've changed a lot
but to me,
the change is too drastic
i can't accept it.
you're a total stranger to me now
i wonder how is it that i can just keep smiling
keepin my emotions inside
i feel so fake
everythings just a facade
your too selfish
spare a thought for me please
but i guess u never did
and you never will.
its 5years of frenship now, not 4.
i didnt know u thru a fren.
i knew u thru the fuckin irc
i wanted u to tell me tt u are back with her yourself.
not thru others,
not thru a total stranger askin me
"u noe he got gf not?"
i felt like just leaving just now
but i still had to think abt how u wld feel
im really amazed
i could still sit there and joke
im really speechless
...
you even shook hands with me
...when i emailed u,
u said i was too formal.
but wad about u..
it really hurts
not because of you being with her,
but because of your attitude towards me.
i've lost sth more precious den a "diary" whom i tell everything to,
i've lost a fren so dear to me
it fucking hurts