if only....
i can be slim
my feet are smaller
my complexion is better
my eyes are bigger
my hair is healthier
...

haha but i guess i hav to accept the real me.
i do like the way i am now,
just tt im kinda fat lol
but theres always this point in time
whereby u will suddenly have the urge
to change yourself,
turn yourself from a lil ugly duckling into a pretty elegant swan
well.. i guess im having that feeling now
prolly cos of the window shoppin just now
saw many pretty babes
ROAR!
bev needs to jianfei badly!

cousins wedding tomoro..
feel kinda excited
cos i'll get to see my many relatives
and they confirm say tt i look prettier
WAHAHAHHA
make me happy =x
no la..
kidding..
but if u compare my present look to my pri sch look
i think u will vomit your intestines out
really change a lot hahhaha
anyways, was practisin walkin in my heels just now
duno which one to wear tomoro..
mimi said the strappy one nicer.
but its like, damn high can?
i'll be as tall as cass if i wear them.
and i'll be walkin like a penguin

in the past, i wouldnt have cared at all
i would always "stand out" among them
cos they were in gowns, while i was in a simple top and skirt
but now.. i really have to change..
cant just expect me to wear tshirt and jeans right?!?!
must look more presentable!
im not those kinda who will wake up 3-4hours earlier to dress up
and i cant say i hate dressin up now..
i just need some time
to get used to it..

i miss wearin large t-shirts and bball jerseys.
you might laugh at me,
but my happiest time durin my teenage years,
was spent wearing them,
having fun with my mweps
i have this constant fear that
i will never be able to fit in with them again
feels kinda ironic,
im trying to change myself
but some part of me is tryin to hold myself back
cos i just cant accept the fact that
i AM growing up.
and soon the day will come,
where i'll have to step out of my comfort zone
and join the world of the adults
where obstacles will be awaiting me
...
oops i think im digressing
haha
anyways.
bev is happy =)
adidas jacket will be out tomoro,
will be rushin down to town to get it
wooooooooooooooooot