sigh..
went to talk things out with ying today
hur.. the "cafe" kinda.. smoky ah!!!
more like a pub. lols
comfy sofas.
thx lian for acc me..
if i went there alone.. i dont think i'll be able to speak up.
sort of settled stuff..
hmm..
do u feel very stressed with me around..?
i guess ur stuck in between her and me..
when ur with her, u'll use lies.. to cover up the truth..
maybe ur afraid i won't be happy..
i read her blog..
maybe theres another ger u like?
hav no idea who is tt..
if things wont be so xinku for u without me ard..
i'd rather leave.
at least.. u won't be caught between sooo many pple.
for me, life with, and without u, is the same.
with u around, i really get affected a lot by u
without u around, i'll feel down too.
its not tt i'm desperate for u
but.. i think i'm startin to grow on u,
tellin u everything,
its a habit alr.
sometimes, u might not even be interested in what i say,
but i still tell u everything. haha
hmmmmm
but now...
we're not talkin again..
how many times has this happened..
almost every few weeks..
perhaps.. this time..
its for real..
maybe u'll contact me again nxt yr? haha..
its like a cycle..
keeps goin on and on..
sigh.
u wont be reading this, but..
at least.. i can voice everything out..
